peter pan & wendy turned out fine, so won't you fly with me.

"yeah, ive been doing fine without you, forgetting all the love we once new, and boy i aint the one to slam that door"

this really says it all (: !

its been awhile since i could hold my head up high.

well for those of you who dont already know, billy broke up with me. We kinda sorta talked about it and he says he just needs time alone to figure things out. Well thats good for him, and he knows that i will always be here for him. Anyways, i havent been to school in 4 days. haha. Friday i didnt go because i couldnt stop crying and today i didnt go because im sick as a dog. I dont feel good at all, lol. Im sweating up a storm, and my windows are open, lol.  Always angels helped this weekend. i needed to get away for awhile. I guess im just gonna always feel heartbroken, because everything was going so good, but at the same time, he still tells me he loves me and hes doing this to better everything for us. Anywho, im getting really tired, and i have a doctors apt around 5 so i should probably get some rest before then.

<3

That thing, that moment, when you kiss someone and everything around becomes hazy and the only thing

I am sitting here watching Never Been Kissed, which by the way is a great movie! Drew Barrymore is such an amazing actress. Billy has been sick all weekend, and he just got back from his snowboarding trip. He just called and told me what he was doing, lol, and said, i just wanted to let you know, and i love you baby, haha. im like, dude, i dont really need to know that your sitting and talking to someone, but okay ; ). He is the sweetest ever though, like he is the definition of perfect to me... i mean sure there are times where i want to punch him in the face, SARCASTICALLY : ), but all the good things override those bad things, and thats rarely ever! I know i talk to much about him, but hes really the only thing i know for sure about in my life, and thats crazy to feel that way. I want to be with him foreva and eva. thats what he tells me too ! (: .  I can't believe i actually just went a week without him!! it is so hard to be away from that boy. Anyways! the movie is done, and im actually wide awake. Jade and darcy want me to go to target, but i look crappy and i just took a shower, i might still go though because i feel like shopping for billy, haha. i wanna get him a shirt or something, i always do lol. i am so bummed though that i cant see him till friday, but i know it will go by fast! well anyways, im peacing, i got to get ready if im gonna go to target!

<3dakota.

forever and always.

i guess i could help everyone and update once in a while.. i am about to go into work so i have to make this rather quicker than usual. Me and billy are doing fantastic still. I really love him a lot and i spend most of my time with him now a days. i was going to go to church last night but i fell asleep and woke up to american idol! lol. i tried to go though, haha. i even curled my hair, i guess i was just really tired though, i even told myself to stay awake! im mad at myself for that one. This weekend will be the first weekend that im actually home! its been crazy. im always in little washington now with billy. its gonna be weird not being there, and actually its gonna really suck because im so used to it and there is nothing to do over here. but surprisingly a lot to do over there!! Well anyways i dont really come to church anymore for certain reasons. One is on sundays i am normally at billys church and 2. wednesdays after work im just exhausted and i cant use my cellphone in church haha lame i know. but anyways another more important reason is the people there. i mean some of you are amazing. some not so much, :). I wont name any names, but me and renee get into it way to much, and she likes to start things and im not gonna surround myself in a negative environment being because everything in my life right now is positive and im not dealing with immature behavior, im trying to better myself by not getting into silly drama that late 20 year olds start, which still makes no sense at all to me, but i guess its just her life. I am sorry but if you say something about me and billy like bad, or rude, dont let me find out. you can say it just dont let me find out, because if i do, you are officially a problem in my book, and her name is written in bold letters. Okay enough ranting.. JORDIE since i know you dont have a myspace and cant see pictures, i decided to upload some of me billy and some of abby (: love you guys.

dakotastar.